So, some exciting news! A new online magazine is coming out for AB/DLs: iDiaper.me. The creator of it has said that he hopes it to be sort of like an ageplayer's cross between Cosmo and Psychology Today. I think this will be a great thing for the community, because we don't really have anything comparable to it. And everyone likes reading interesting articles! But what I'm really excited about is that I'm going to be a contributor! Yay! I will still keep this blog, of course, because this is where my silly little day-to-day adventures go. I'm already scheming up all sorts of things to write about for the site, though. It'll be my new way of convincing Daddy to do stuff. XD "But you have to spank me, how else can I write an article about it?"
So what you oughta go do right now is sign up for iDiaper.me's newsletter. Not just because you'll know what's going on with the site, but because when you do, you're automatically entered to win a free case of Bambino diapers! There's also a Twitter account you can follow if you're so inclined, http://twitter.com/iDiaperMe. I made myself a Twitter as well, http://twitter.com/lilboyschwarz. I know you can't resist hearing about what stupid thing I'm doing at any given hour of the day!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
More Shopping!
So yesterday, I finally went to investigate a sign I'd kept driving past advertising an indoor flea market. At first I got lost because I hadn't paid very good attention to the information on the sign, so I stopped at a nearby mall to get lunch and walk around a little. I went to the dollar store there, and they actually sold clothes, though most were in the range of two or three dollars. Lo and behold, there was one pair of shortalls! They were only three dollars so I excitedly snapped them up...and then got home to find out they didn't fit. I think if I had looked at them more critically I would have realized that without needing to try them on, but they were so cute that I was doing wishful thinking. The top portion zips off, and has a big pocket on the front that's set at an angle, and then the fastener for the strap in the back looks kinda like old-fashioned suspenders. It also had an elastic band running along the waistband in the back, which I thought was very little kid-ish. But alas! I do not fit into a size one, and I should have realized this! At least I'm only out three bucks, though.
I looked up directions to this flea market while I was at the mall, and then made my way there. It was one of those disappointing flea market "malls," where they charge more for booths so you only have people with businesses there, not just your average person looking to sell some of their unused/unwanted stuff. That having been said, I did find two things that I'm pretty excited about!
The first is a pacifier that has a pretty decently-sized nipple. It's a brand called "Soother," and seems like the relatively cheapy sort that you could find at a dollar store. But look at it in comparison to a Nuk 3 (on the left):
The bulb at the end isn't as large, but the nipple is a lot longer. I really like it! Will it fall apart after using it a few times? Well, maybe, but you get what you pay for.
I also found more cute underwear! I'm always on the lookout for these, because it's sort of difficult to find it in sizes that will fit me. Those racecar ones actually came in a pack in which the others were solid-colored. So when I found a pack in which every pair had fun designs, I knew I had to get it!
I am so in love with these. I may not be the most sporty person in the world, but I do love puppies and Volkswagens! And these really do look like the sort of underwear kids wore when I was physically five, as opposed to just mentally. XD
Tomorrow I'm going to what I'm hoping will be a real flea market, so who knows what I'll find? You also oughta be able to expect a diaper review from me soon, i.e., whenever I actually go out and buy the ones I've been thinking of getting.
I looked up directions to this flea market while I was at the mall, and then made my way there. It was one of those disappointing flea market "malls," where they charge more for booths so you only have people with businesses there, not just your average person looking to sell some of their unused/unwanted stuff. That having been said, I did find two things that I'm pretty excited about!
The first is a pacifier that has a pretty decently-sized nipple. It's a brand called "Soother," and seems like the relatively cheapy sort that you could find at a dollar store. But look at it in comparison to a Nuk 3 (on the left):
The bulb at the end isn't as large, but the nipple is a lot longer. I really like it! Will it fall apart after using it a few times? Well, maybe, but you get what you pay for.
I also found more cute underwear! I'm always on the lookout for these, because it's sort of difficult to find it in sizes that will fit me. Those racecar ones actually came in a pack in which the others were solid-colored. So when I found a pack in which every pair had fun designs, I knew I had to get it!
I am so in love with these. I may not be the most sporty person in the world, but I do love puppies and Volkswagens! And these really do look like the sort of underwear kids wore when I was physically five, as opposed to just mentally. XD
Tomorrow I'm going to what I'm hoping will be a real flea market, so who knows what I'll find? You also oughta be able to expect a diaper review from me soon, i.e., whenever I actually go out and buy the ones I've been thinking of getting.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Shopping Around
Since I've been out of town nearly every day for a summer class that I'm taking, I've had some opportunities to shop around for baby stuff without having to worry that anyone I know will see me. I can't say I've had the greatest of luck, since the number one thing I was looking for were Pampers size 7, and so far I've found them in neither WalMart, Target, nor the grocery store. However, there's a Toys R' Us/Babies R' Us in the area as well, so I'll stop there probably some time this week. I feel like if they don't have them, I'm just going to give up looking. It's not that big of a deal; I don't need to have them, but I would just like to try them out and I think I should be able to fit in them. And even if I can't, they can always be used as stuffers.
Of course, once I'm there I'm not going to be able to leave empty-handed! Although to be honest I'm not sure what to buy other than diapers. I don't need any new pacifiers unless I can find one that's larger than the Nuk 18+ months, which I don't think is very likely. I definitely don't need any new stuffed animals! Maybe I'll buy a bottle, because I don't have one here. Mostly what I'll probably do is wish I could fit into all of the cute clothes there! I've also been on the lookout for those lately. There's a thrift store I want to check up on within the next week or two to see if they've gotten anything good. My main problem with shopping for clothes is that the regular boys' clothes fit me, but I don't like their designs as much as I like the ones for little boys. I always think the little boys' clothes are so cute and funny, especially the ones that have a picture of something and then the name of it beneath it. I saw "CRAB" the other day at WalMart, but even a 5T is far from being able to fit me! I'm also looking for some shortalls, because I reaaally want some, but so far no luck.
I've been to a couple of dollar stores too, just because I wanted to see what they had. Not much, really, except for one thing I consider a good find, which is the "Angel of Mine" line of baby care products. They're not tested on animals, and of course, only a dollar! You really can't beat that. I bought some baby oil lotion and this really neat baby powder scented spray. I know there is somewhere online that sells a baby powder scent, but it's quite expensive compared to this. I think you could definitely use this to make regular diapers smell nice, as long as you only sprayed it on the outside. I'm also going to spray it on my stuffed whale, Bon Bon, because he got cleaned with Woolite and I don't think that smells so great.
I've found out that I'm going to have a free week between when my summer course ends and when I go on vacation with my family, so I'm really hoping I can drive up to visit Daddy again! I miss him so much. I especially did this past weekend, because I was at a convention and kept seeing things that reminded me of him and thinking about how much fun we would have had if he'd been there. Not that I didn't have fun as it was, but everything is better with him! <3
Of course, once I'm there I'm not going to be able to leave empty-handed! Although to be honest I'm not sure what to buy other than diapers. I don't need any new pacifiers unless I can find one that's larger than the Nuk 18+ months, which I don't think is very likely. I definitely don't need any new stuffed animals! Maybe I'll buy a bottle, because I don't have one here. Mostly what I'll probably do is wish I could fit into all of the cute clothes there! I've also been on the lookout for those lately. There's a thrift store I want to check up on within the next week or two to see if they've gotten anything good. My main problem with shopping for clothes is that the regular boys' clothes fit me, but I don't like their designs as much as I like the ones for little boys. I always think the little boys' clothes are so cute and funny, especially the ones that have a picture of something and then the name of it beneath it. I saw "CRAB" the other day at WalMart, but even a 5T is far from being able to fit me! I'm also looking for some shortalls, because I reaaally want some, but so far no luck.
I've been to a couple of dollar stores too, just because I wanted to see what they had. Not much, really, except for one thing I consider a good find, which is the "Angel of Mine" line of baby care products. They're not tested on animals, and of course, only a dollar! You really can't beat that. I bought some baby oil lotion and this really neat baby powder scented spray. I know there is somewhere online that sells a baby powder scent, but it's quite expensive compared to this. I think you could definitely use this to make regular diapers smell nice, as long as you only sprayed it on the outside. I'm also going to spray it on my stuffed whale, Bon Bon, because he got cleaned with Woolite and I don't think that smells so great.
I've found out that I'm going to have a free week between when my summer course ends and when I go on vacation with my family, so I'm really hoping I can drive up to visit Daddy again! I miss him so much. I especially did this past weekend, because I was at a convention and kept seeing things that reminded me of him and thinking about how much fun we would have had if he'd been there. Not that I didn't have fun as it was, but everything is better with him! <3
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Shaving Problems
It's been years since I shaved with anything like regularity. For the past year, I didn't shave any part of my body whatsoever, and for maybe three years prior to that it was only whenever I went swimming or for the period in which I was dating the guy who didn't know I was trans. Even when I was living as a female, it always seemed a really unnecessary thing to do that took up way too much time to maintain. Daddy has, I think, very reasonable standards about shaving when I consider the fact that a lot of AB/DLs are made to shave all over. He's okay with hair on arms and legs, but just doesn't like body hair. Now, under my arms is no problem, because I always shaved there up until last year. It's easy to do and I can do it in under a minute. Pubic hair, however, was a different story. Before last month, I had only ever shaved completely once, and had the reaction that I think most people who do it for the first time do - my skin got irritated and it itched like heck when it started to grow back, so I decided not to do it anymore, though I always kept the area neatly trimmed.
Well, I would do anything for Daddy if he asked me to, so a little bit of shaving is no problem. What is a problem, though, is that despite using all the tips I've read online and the advice Daddy's given me - I use a new razor every time, I don't shave first thing in the morning, I don't bear down hard, I use a thick cream-style bodywash, and I stay in the shower for a few minutes before shaving to open my pores and soften the hair - when I pull the razor across my skin it honestly just feels like it's ripping the hair out. I end up with about ten or so little cuts each time, fortunately always on the upper portion and not very near to my actual genitals, but they still hurt! It also seems impossible for me to get a smooth shave. Even right after doing it, there's still stubble. It helps to do it in short little strokes and to pull the skin taut, but it's still nowhere near what I'd like it to be. I know that it takes a little while for your skin and hair to get used to shaving and that it becomes more effective then, but the cuts have gotta stop!
So does anyone out there have any advice for me? I'd really appreciate it, because I would definitely like to have this whole shaving thing mastered by the time I visit Daddy again.
Well, I would do anything for Daddy if he asked me to, so a little bit of shaving is no problem. What is a problem, though, is that despite using all the tips I've read online and the advice Daddy's given me - I use a new razor every time, I don't shave first thing in the morning, I don't bear down hard, I use a thick cream-style bodywash, and I stay in the shower for a few minutes before shaving to open my pores and soften the hair - when I pull the razor across my skin it honestly just feels like it's ripping the hair out. I end up with about ten or so little cuts each time, fortunately always on the upper portion and not very near to my actual genitals, but they still hurt! It also seems impossible for me to get a smooth shave. Even right after doing it, there's still stubble. It helps to do it in short little strokes and to pull the skin taut, but it's still nowhere near what I'd like it to be. I know that it takes a little while for your skin and hair to get used to shaving and that it becomes more effective then, but the cuts have gotta stop!
So does anyone out there have any advice for me? I'd really appreciate it, because I would definitely like to have this whole shaving thing mastered by the time I visit Daddy again.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Pondering Video Blogging
I made myself a separate YouTube account for AB/DL stuff, since I watch a lot of videos on there but didn't want to subscribe to AB/DL people's channels on my regular account. My username is littleboyschwarz, and if you check out my subscriptions you can see a few people whose videos I really like. I'm always on the lookout for more, though, so I'd appreciate any recommendations. Some of these video blogs have made me want to make a few videos of my own, but I am hesitant for the obvious reason that it's YouTube, and theoretically anyone could see it. I've thought about doing videos where I don't show my face, though. Some of the people I watch do that, and I still find the videos entertaining.
On the other hand, there's also DPRTube. I don't have an account there yet, so maybe I should make one. I'm sure that there's some way to set it so that your videos can only be viewed by members, and if that's the case I would feel a lot more comfortable showing my face. My main problem with the site is...well, go to the front page and take a look, if you're brave enough. A huge percentage of what you'll see consists of people wetting/messing their diapers, or having them changed. I am not interested in this. I can't judge people if that's what they want to do, but it's just something I want to watch. Browsing around, it seems like about five months ago there was an attempt by a few members of the community to get more people to do video blogs, but after a brief increase in activity it just sort of fizzled out.
Oh, and I'd forgotten that you could post videos on DiaperSpace. It's slightly better when it comes to having things other than just people using their diapers, but still not much in the way of blogs. I think that's my best bet, though...if only because I already have a profile on there and it's all done up the way I like it. Before I do anything, though, I'll have to ask Daddy what he thinks.
In other news, I got racecar undies! :D
On the other hand, there's also DPRTube. I don't have an account there yet, so maybe I should make one. I'm sure that there's some way to set it so that your videos can only be viewed by members, and if that's the case I would feel a lot more comfortable showing my face. My main problem with the site is...well, go to the front page and take a look, if you're brave enough. A huge percentage of what you'll see consists of people wetting/messing their diapers, or having them changed. I am not interested in this. I can't judge people if that's what they want to do, but it's just something I want to watch. Browsing around, it seems like about five months ago there was an attempt by a few members of the community to get more people to do video blogs, but after a brief increase in activity it just sort of fizzled out.
Oh, and I'd forgotten that you could post videos on DiaperSpace. It's slightly better when it comes to having things other than just people using their diapers, but still not much in the way of blogs. I think that's my best bet, though...if only because I already have a profile on there and it's all done up the way I like it. Before I do anything, though, I'll have to ask Daddy what he thinks.
In other news, I got racecar undies! :D
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Wetting for the First Time
Well, I know I just wrote, but I did indeed go put on a GoodNite and managed to get myself to actually use it this time. At first I had to stand in the bathtub, but once I did it that way, I tried it sitting down and now I'm on my bed using it intermittently. It's not the same as using the toilet, when it's all at once, but I'd rather not have it be like that anyways because I would be afraid of flooding it and leaking. I think providing myself with some assurance that it wasn't going to leak was an important part of this. That was one of the things that I felt was preventing me from using my diaper at Daddy's house - I didn't want to ruin his blankets and mattress. What I didn't realize was just how much even something like a GoodNite expands. It's amazing! It just keeps absorbing and getting more and more bulky. I had thought it was going to feel all wet and yucky after I used it, but it doesn't at all. This is really cool! <3
Saturday, June 5, 2010
My First Visit With Daddy
Well, my visit with Daddy was awesome, but of course I expected no less! We did all sorts of stuff...watched movies (including a double feature at a drive-in), ate ice cream, went to the park, the mall, Toys R Us, couple of old graveyards...and cuddled a lot! Oh my gosh, I can't even put into words what a good time I had. It didn't even matter what we were doing, just so long as I was with him. I was so happy I felt like I was going to explode!
We didn't get a whole lot of little time because he lives with his parents, and maybe some people like the thrill of getting caught, but not us! It's okay though, because what we did have was great and there will be plenty of time in the future, especially once I move into my new apartment. I'll have a roommate, and while she doesn't know about me being a little boy, she knows enough about me that if I told her not to come in, she wouldn't come in!
I think we were both a little shy because it was the first time either of us had done anything like that with another person. In fact, it was the first time I had ever worn a diaper, because I had always been too timid to go out and buy any. But we went to Wal-Mart on the first night I was there and got some GoodNites, and since Daddy was with me I wasn't scared at all. We also had some Bambinos that a friend of ours sent, but they were mediums and I'm a very small guy so we decided to layer them over the GoodNites. It was sooo thick and I couldn't stop shifting around because I really liked how it felt.
I couldn't get myself to actually wet them, though. It felt like I had a bit of a mental block against it. As I said to Daddy, you spend your whole life not peeing on/in things, so it's kind of hard to suddenly just throw all that conditioning out the window. I brought the GoodNites and one of the packs of Bambinos home with me, though, so I'm going to practice so that the next time I go see Daddy (hopefully next month!) I'll be able to use them and then he can really change me. After all, it sort of seems like a shame to throw away a dry diaper, don't you think?
We are so lucky to have met the friend who sent us the diapers, because he also sent all sorts of other things that really made this visit (as well as future ones) special, like a onesie, a big stuffed kitty, a really nice bottle, and a Nuk 5. That's a kind of bink, if you don't know, that they only sell in Europe. It's got a really big nipple; it's great! I had read about it before and it really is true what people say, that the larger size makes a big difference. I do still like the smaller Nuk that I have, though. They are mushy and fun to nom on. XD I think it's a good thing I'm not a real baby, because with the way I treat rubber nipples I suspect I'd do a number on an actual one!
Anyways, it was just ridiculously amazing, and I'm so excited about the future of our relationship. And in constant disbelief at how lucky I've gotten! I can't even put the way he makes me feel into words. He's a little better at it than I am, I think, and I also realized yesterday that I haven't yet linked to our DiaperSpace pages. So:
http://www.diaperspace.com/schwarz
http://www.diaperspace.com/Papa_Alexander
He blogs on his (I used to until I moved over to here, but I'm still active on my account), and wrote about our time together. It's so sweet it made me tear up! Our whole relationship is just...a big pile of kittens! That's the best way I can think of to describe it!
Feel free to add me on DiaperSpace. I pretty much approve all my friend requests, with maybe the exception of people who have absolutely nothing on their profile. I don't understand why you'd just leave it blank, anyways! To me, that's one of the most fun parts of a site like that.
Well, that's all for now. I'm thinking I may go put on one of those GoodNites and get to work on my...un-potty training. Until next time! <3
We didn't get a whole lot of little time because he lives with his parents, and maybe some people like the thrill of getting caught, but not us! It's okay though, because what we did have was great and there will be plenty of time in the future, especially once I move into my new apartment. I'll have a roommate, and while she doesn't know about me being a little boy, she knows enough about me that if I told her not to come in, she wouldn't come in!
I think we were both a little shy because it was the first time either of us had done anything like that with another person. In fact, it was the first time I had ever worn a diaper, because I had always been too timid to go out and buy any. But we went to Wal-Mart on the first night I was there and got some GoodNites, and since Daddy was with me I wasn't scared at all. We also had some Bambinos that a friend of ours sent, but they were mediums and I'm a very small guy so we decided to layer them over the GoodNites. It was sooo thick and I couldn't stop shifting around because I really liked how it felt.
I couldn't get myself to actually wet them, though. It felt like I had a bit of a mental block against it. As I said to Daddy, you spend your whole life not peeing on/in things, so it's kind of hard to suddenly just throw all that conditioning out the window. I brought the GoodNites and one of the packs of Bambinos home with me, though, so I'm going to practice so that the next time I go see Daddy (hopefully next month!) I'll be able to use them and then he can really change me. After all, it sort of seems like a shame to throw away a dry diaper, don't you think?
We are so lucky to have met the friend who sent us the diapers, because he also sent all sorts of other things that really made this visit (as well as future ones) special, like a onesie, a big stuffed kitty, a really nice bottle, and a Nuk 5. That's a kind of bink, if you don't know, that they only sell in Europe. It's got a really big nipple; it's great! I had read about it before and it really is true what people say, that the larger size makes a big difference. I do still like the smaller Nuk that I have, though. They are mushy and fun to nom on. XD I think it's a good thing I'm not a real baby, because with the way I treat rubber nipples I suspect I'd do a number on an actual one!
Anyways, it was just ridiculously amazing, and I'm so excited about the future of our relationship. And in constant disbelief at how lucky I've gotten! I can't even put the way he makes me feel into words. He's a little better at it than I am, I think, and I also realized yesterday that I haven't yet linked to our DiaperSpace pages. So:
http://www.diaperspace.com/schwarz
http://www.diaperspace.com/Papa_Alexander
He blogs on his (I used to until I moved over to here, but I'm still active on my account), and wrote about our time together. It's so sweet it made me tear up! Our whole relationship is just...a big pile of kittens! That's the best way I can think of to describe it!
Feel free to add me on DiaperSpace. I pretty much approve all my friend requests, with maybe the exception of people who have absolutely nothing on their profile. I don't understand why you'd just leave it blank, anyways! To me, that's one of the most fun parts of a site like that.
Well, that's all for now. I'm thinking I may go put on one of those GoodNites and get to work on my...un-potty training. Until next time! <3
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